Panic

Panic attacks and anxiety still haunt me. While the frequency occurs less and less, my nervousness can creap up unexpectedly and completely take over making it nearly impossible to breathe in some instances. And it happened again today. My adopted mom wanted to spend time with my daughter before school starts next week. She had… Continue reading Panic

Family by marriage

My husband is 28 years older than I am. I very, rarely admit the exact number of years he is my senior. It is obvious when we are together that there is, in fact, an age difference however, the exact number of years is rarely spoken out loud. When we married almost 15 years ago,… Continue reading Family by marriage

It’s Legal

August 1, 2018 At 8:41 a.m., I officially took my Father's last name! One June 30, 2018, my Dad and my Aunty honored my daughter and I with Hawaiian and Tahitian names. It is difficult to fully explain the emotional experience of being part of such a beautiful naming ceremony (see Our Hawaiian Names post… Continue reading It’s Legal

Heart Break

How do I protect someone's heart when I know the truth will hurt? My Mom was in town visiting. I'm sure she was curious about my time in Hawaii but wasn't pushing for details. She decided to extend her stay and rented a beach house. After dinner, while the kids played and with a glass… Continue reading Heart Break